Husbands sick. Really sick. He's been in bed all day besides the few hours that we were at the urgent care center. Poor guy, I've never seen him so miserable and it makes me sad to see him like this. Earlier today I felt like such an awesome wife because I was taking care of him and his fever was going down. But then within a few hours his fever shot up again and I found myself lost, confused, and panicking inside from not knowing what to do [worst feeling ever by the way].
Growing up is a funny thing you know. I'm 22 and married. I feel young but when I think about my role as a wife and a mother-to-be (someday, not now) I don't feel so young anymore. I feel like I should be more of something else. Hmmmm whats the word... "mature" maybe? haha.... ugh. I know that a lot of these things that I feel like I "should" be will come later through experience. But as of right now, its definitely confusing and awkward. Like I don't know what to do with myself. I'm 22 guys. But once in a while I'll feel like I should be more like 32. It's awkward. There's really no other way to put it. Plus it doesn't help that I look 17 [thank you asian genes!]. It has its perks I guess, but it also confuses people when they see a ring on my finger. haha. Anyway, don't really know where I'm going with this but thanks for reading anyway. 22, who at times feels 32, who really looks 17. That's me! Aweeesomee. Growing up is weird. And now I need to go take care of the sickly one in bed.