Friday, January 11, 2013

Welp.

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Husbands sick. Really sick. He's been in bed all day besides the few hours that we were at the urgent care center. Poor guy, I've never seen him so miserable and it makes me sad to see him like this. Earlier today I felt like such an awesome wife because I was taking care of him and his fever was going down. But then within a few hours his fever shot up again and I found myself lost, confused, and panicking inside from not knowing what to do [worst feeling ever by the way].

Growing up is a funny thing you know. I'm 22 and married. I feel young but when I think about my role as a wife and a mother-to-be (someday, not now) I don't feel so young anymore. I feel like I should be more of something else. Hmmmm whats the word... "mature" maybe? haha.... ugh. I know that a lot of these things that I feel like I "should" be will come later through experience. But as of right now, its definitely confusing and awkward. Like I don't know what to do with myself. I'm 22 guys. But once in a while I'll feel like I should be more like 32. It's awkward. There's really no other way to put it. Plus it doesn't help that I look 17 [thank you asian genes!]. It has its perks I guess, but it also confuses people when they see a ring on my finger. haha. Anyway, don't really know where I'm going with this but thanks for reading anyway. 22, who at times feels 32, who really looks 17. That's me! Aweeesomee. Growing up is weird. And now I need to go take care of the sickly one in bed.  

See ya.


36 comments:

  1. Nice words I feels the same sometimes... Life's hard, sweet, and everything at the same time!!... I hope your husband can recover from soon!! Visit http://www.urbanfashionstylee.blogspot.mx and check my new post!!

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  2. Definitely know what you mean, but I'm 26...super old ;)
    Thanks for sharing - you are a funny chica and you're so lucky you have those Asian genes!
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  3. yikes, i hope your husband feels better soon!!! i felt that awkwardness for a long time too (asian genes, hear hear), but you are doing an amazing thing! you sound like an amazing wife and mother (someday)!

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  4. Aww hope he feels better soon:(. I'm sure you're taking great care of him! It just has to run it's course. Damn flu! As for the age thing...I totally get it. Sometimes I feel like a 50 yr old trapped in 25 yr olds body lol! You're still so young though:))!

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  5. aww hoep he gets better soon! and don't stress yourself :) cheer up!

    love, annick from http://only4feet9.blogspot.com

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  6. aww hope he feels better soon. everyone is getting sick these days! I can relate to what you're saying about looking younger than you are... when people see a ring on my finger they say, "wait, how old are you?!" blame it on the Asian genes :)

    xx Ellie
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  7. Aww hope your hubby gets well soon!!

    I know.. asian genes.. I'm 29 and ppl still ask if I'm 18.. then they get shocked when I correct them. Lol

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  8. Hope your hubby gets well soon! And i know what you mean when people give you weird stares when they see a ring or you tell them that you're married. I get that all the time too. -_-

    Cheer up and stay strong! Take care babe. :)

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  9. You should trade with me. I'm 32 (+2) and I feel like a 22-year old some time.
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  10. Love this photo.
    I hope your husband gets well soon.

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  11. I hope your husband gets well soon!
    & I think I know how you feel.. I've been with my boyfriend for 3 years and I'm 21, we're living together except for the weekends (we have a flat together close to school), and sometimes it feels like I'm 30 when I'm cleaning and cooking and stuff. And all of a sudden I realise: wait I'm still a child, I don't know anything about this, haha!

    Anyway, don't worry we all have that feeling every once in a while, you're doing the right thing :)
    xx

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  12. hey marsa! Your husband will get well again! I hope he's fine again really soon and send you a lot of strenght.
    You're only 22?!? Actually I thought you were older (like 27 or so)... but maybe that's because most of the Asian girls I see in the blogosphere wear girly stuff and a lot of makeup?! You look absolutely natural and I think you're going to look young for a looooong time. (like most Asians!!)
    Getting mature however is something so weird and it's defintely not easy. Sometimes I really ask myslef how it's going to happen but then I realise that you can see your improvement in difficult situations like yours for example. It's about how we act and think in these moments that makes us be proud of ourselves afterwards. Be strong and caring :)
    beautiful picture by the way.

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  13. True story, I'll attain full age in some months and still feel like 15 or so haha. And I even look younger which might has to do something with Asian genes.
    I hope your hubs will get well soon!

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  14. HAHA! I love this post of yours (: You have a fun way with words Marsita (: I'm sorry Jerry's feeling junk though :( Hope he gets better soon! Miss youuuu

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  15. so sorry to hear your husband is sick! i feel like there is something going around. everyone i know is sick. hope he gets better soon. and i'm sure you're doing everything right! :) i just turned 34 and while a side of me feels like i did "mature" through life experiences, there are things i still have no clue about! :D you're amazing now and you'll be amazing when you're 32!

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  16. I'm 23 and often feel the same way sometimes.

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  17. I hope he feels better soon! Bad flu season this year :(

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  18. I feel like a really old lady all the time! I'm only 24 and normally in bed by 9 or 10, my Saturday night life is cuddling with the little one watching Retro shows on TV!! So don't feel bad! I hope your husband feels better!

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  19. Awww I hope your husband feels better soon! I know how you feel right now girl; I had to take care of my boyfriend once too and it was horrible. No matter what I did he was still being sick and fatigued which made me feel so help less :( But dw coz once your husband starts feeling better you'll be so happy and glad he's healthy again!

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  20. I hope he gets better and that you get to care for him. :) I'm sure he appreciates it.

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  21. awwh hope he feels better! my husband was sick all last week... not fun when hubby is sick.. :[

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  22. Wow - you're so much younger than I thought you were! You're my age - and you're married! That's terrifying to me.

    But you seem so happy - I really admire you! And don't worry about the Asian genes (I got 'em too), we can just figure we'll be thankful for them when we're 40. And then hate them when we're 60 (ever notice how Asians all look younger than they are until one day they look ANCIENT?!).

    I hope Jerry gets better! And that you can relax a little.

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    1. thanks and yes i am really happy :)

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  23. I'm a lot older than you (let's just say I'm nearing 30) and sometimes I still feel like I'm not a grown up, haha! And I also look very young, often mistaken for a high schooler. Glad to hear your hubby is feeling better now :)

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  24. Hey Marsa, I stumbled upon your blog a few days ago. I came back again today to thank you for your comment on my blog and came across this entry of yours. I can totally relate! I'm older than you, and just like Sharon above, I have plenty of days when I feel like I don't have it together and I'm not an adult. I've heard that being an adult is when you put someone else's needs above your own, so maybe you're already there kid, in the way you've looked after your husband ;)

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  25. aww, im sorry to hear that.
    hope he recovers soon.
    Cheer up

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  26. People are always commenting that my hubby and I are too young to be married as well! We're the same age as you and your hubby. Hope he feels better soon!

    Sheree
    thehartungs.blogspot.ca

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  27. I didn't know you were 22... I'm 22 as well.

    I can imagine that it's different being married at this age but it really does wonders for your maturity. (So I see from others.)

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  28. Waah! I almost cry reading your post. Gosh, why I'm so late reading this post. Anyway you're right you look like 17 :) So much thank you to our asian genes. haha! You know, all you said here was true. It is really a lot different when you're married (just got this from my mom and friends, i'm not married yet). I'm also 22 and me and my boyfriend Jerry(whose happened to have same name like your husband) :) were planning to get married too. But were still looking for the possibilities if we are financially and emotionally matured and strong enough to face this decision. I'm proud and happy that you both found the courage to get married and to walk this journey together. :) Everything is a challenge and we always gain experience. I really love your post because aside from your beautiful outfits I also get to learn and be inspired from what you write.

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    1. aww thank you! it means so much to me that you read through all the nonsense haha and thanks for the advice! so sweet <3

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